It has been a week since the indecent. It has been really hard letting go, but I think that I am finally able to. I was sick of just waiting around for her whims, dangling the promise of a relationship while sleeping around with other guys. All of her friends kept on telling me to let her go and walk away, but I still clung to hope with her.
Last night was the last straw, I had run into her best friend before I went out and she told me how evil Sae was being. I couldn't believe my ears and I could feel my heart clench in my chest. I didn't want to believe, but I knew that it had to be true.
When I ran into her later, I confronted her, but she was just drunk and laughed, but later I had to deal with her accusing me of just assuming things and that I didn't know what I was talking about when I obviously did. The pain was just too much and I allowed myself to be sucked in and we a long and drawn out argument
This morning, it just continued and I started to realize that I am not willing to fight for this anymore. I tried and I tried till it drove me nuts, because I loved her, but you cannot help someone that does not want to be helped and I deserve better than that. At this point, the cons outweigh the pros, so I am going to leave and focus on myself for a while.
Someday I will have something better and the pain of this moment will just fade into faint scars.
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