It is a shock when the woman that you once loved rushes into marriage with someone else. Is this just to smite me, or is it actually for real? I guess at this point it doesn't matter. It was just that I never expected this. Thankfully, it was just a short amount of time that I wasted, but then again, I have never loved anyone as much as her...and parts of me wonder if I ever will.
Maybe it would be better to be a perpetual bachelor. I don't know if I can go through all of this again, or at least for a very long time. I mean, I was lonely being single, but it is this better than the rudderless feeling of falling in love with someone and having your heart torn from your chest. Part of me knows that I will have a more exciting life, but another part knows that this is really what I wanted all along.
Oh, well...
There is nothing I can do about it now. This is the hand I was dealt and this is what I have to play with.
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