I am starting to grasp the extent of how much my attempt hurt her, just based off of how cold and harsh she is being. Part of me really wants to be furious with her for her rash decisions to sleep with someone else right after we decide to take a break, but she is single now and that is part of what that entails. I still have hope though, regardless of how this turns out. While I really do hope that we would get back together, I know that it has to be under the right circumstances. I was stressed and unhappy a lot for a damn good reason and I have no intention to going back to that, especially after what happened.
Right now, I just need to just focus on getting healthy and doing the things that make me happy. She did have a really good point. I have to stop basing my happiness on other people, because if I do then their random whims have the ability to devastate me and I never want to go through that ever again.
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