Chasing Horizons

     Sometimes, it takes being in a relationship to really appreciate what you have when you are single.  It seems that the cure is often worse than the disease.  We sacrifice our freedom and carefree lifestyle for a life of duty and obligation. This does not appeal to me at all.  I cannot sacrifice the things that help define my identity for a transient feeling of love.

     Love, like any other addiction is often hard to give up.  Mainlining these emotions for the rush of chemical euphoria may feel great but causes us to be blind to the red flags that signal the impending danger of things to come.  That is why compatibility is so important.  Being with the wrong person will make you feel miserable and detract from where you know that you need to be in life.  We need to find our validation within ourselves, because we cannot really expect others to do it for us.  We will always be disappointed by the unrealistic expectations that we place on others so it is better to enjoy their company but not rely on them.

     As a sensualist, I am happy that I experienced this because nothing compares to actually learning something firsthand rather than vicariously living through the lives of others.  This kind of experience is essential for any writer, and especially for one that relies on their own self experience to inspire them.  How can we write about love and loss if we have no frame of reference.  I am just happy that I have found my inspiration again as well as the means to carry it out.