I am beginning to value time spent in solitude again. It seemed that for so long I would do anything to give me an escape from my thoughts, whether it be surrounding by people constantly or dulling my senses with drinking a d the like. However, now that I am spending a lot more time alone, I am beginning to realize that many of the qualities that I value about myself were brought about in my solitude and not when I was in the company of others.
I am an artist, yet I feel my creativity diminish of I spend too much time in the presence of others. It is draining to wear the cheerful mask that I have crafted for myself over the years and I need time to retreat to create and to recharge. The last few weeks have been interesting for me. Due to all the things I have been buying for the new apartment, I have not had as much money to go out and I realized that I was missing part of myself and I have become reacquainted. I finally had to face thoughts that I had been avoiding and I am better for it.
Solitude, isn't as bad as it is made out to be. You get to reflect and grow. And from this, a new spring of creativity was born and just in time too. There is a lot of work to be done.
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